You just told 75-80% of my own story!!! You are amazing and full of courage. Stay safe and well man. 🙂💛✊

Omg, I love your story. You have such a sweet personality and I'm glad I came across your channel. I've been a Christian for more than half of my life, and everything you said resonated with me. I grew up hating myself and thinking I was flawed. During the pandemic, I experienced anxiety and depression -- which I had before but couldn't put a finger on. I decided to find a therapist who could help me maneuver through my homosexuality and my declining mental health. This therapist became my lifeline. I mean, he made me feel seen, understood, loved, and valued. Because of his help, I was able to come out to myself, then to my closest friends and family. In doing so, I hurt my friends. It just went completely against everything we believed, and they too hurt me after telling me I needed to lay this part of my life down and continue to "fight" against it. However, I realized this was never a fight I was supposed to wage. Now, I am an openly gay man, happier than ever, and even though I don't live the conventional Christian way, I believe God loves me deeply and I love Him too. I'd like to say to my Christian queer people, as the Bible says, you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

I hope that you are in a better place now, with being gay and Christian. I grew up in a Christian religion and experienced a lot of the things that you describe in this video, I even spent two years serving a mission for my church. I heard from a church leader one time that if you continue to pray for something and you are not getting the answer that you are seeking, then you are getting an answer, you just need to be open to recieving the answer. Meaning, God is not changing your sexual orientation because there is nothing wrong with being gay and that you were born that way and God has a plan for you. Congratulations on coming out and all the best in the future.

Your story sounds alot like me. I am 70 yrs now..never came out..was maried and divorsed after 20 yrs . Have two lovely daughters that loves me.. I believe in God and I now believe that He is so great and that we do not know all of Him. I made my peace with being gay but not active. You are a brave young man. Thanks for sharing. God bless!

I used to beg God, "Why did you make me this way?" The answers I received ranged from silence to "I'm sorry" to "I had to so you would understand" It was a pretty lonely time because I knew what my folks thought of gay people, and I just had this nagging feeling the people in church were nice, but they probably wouldn't be so nice if they knew who I really was... The only way I felt safe was to confide directly in the source. It was God's UNCONDITIONAL love that kept me alive during my teen years. "We love you, keep going, just a little more." He said, "I've already lost one son, I don't need to lose another." He also said, "Your eyes cannot deny what your heart sees." So, a person might say, well .. maybe you really didn't talk to God, maybe that was just your mind doing everything it could to prevent you from hurting yourself. Maybe so. But I've had some pretty interesting experiences that I just can't explain any other way. I've always just wanted to love people and be loved. I still feel that way. Hormones complicated that a bit .. I would have much rather remained innocent but that's just not how being human works. Oh, it took a long time but I eventually did understand. I received two gifts. The ability to live with a bit of constant uncertainty in life. And also, the ability to know what it feels like to be on the outside, looking in at what other people think is "normal". Very painful at the time .. I wouldn't wish it on anybody but both these gifts are actually pretty useful in this day and age.

Hey man- I’m almost 42 and have experienced so many things you went through. As a Christian man, I have struggled so much in my life and have sought any solution possible to my same sex feelings. A little over a year ago, I finally admitted to myself that I am gay and now I am walking out my life with God to see where He is leading me. It would be so cool if people like you and me could praise and worship together and seek God’s path for our lives. Keep smiling and keep sharing. You made my evening.

I'm a religious Muslim, I'm 24 and I'm gay. I have felt and still feel the same kind of things. Coming out is not really a option for me here and I really can't see where my life is going. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

Because you are a Christian, and have many other outstanding qualities, this is the best “coming out” video I've seen. You are a masterpiece of God’s handiwork, and your boyfriend is one lucky man. I’m also gay, a Christian, a veteran, am college-educated, was raised Catholic, went to 14 years of Catholic school, and considered getting married several times. Grew up in Ohio. Have been to Cincinnati several times. Since you mentioned Andrews AFB, I used to live in the DC area. Despite all, you seem very blessed, and may God continue to richly bless you.

As someone that also grew up in the late 90s going to the community pool at Andrews, fought the temptations to double-take guys in grey sweats, played double-Dutch with the girls, and even dated girls to force the hetero lifestyle, I thank you for sharing this story! The relatability to my experiences coupled with your openness and composure gives me reassurance and peace. I am now in my late 20s, married to a wonderful man, and even fostering a wonderful son. Please share more stories, please love yourself, and please do not compare yourself to the “young” youtubers - you’re a genuine, easy-going guy with a smile that kills.

I was a 5 year old boy who asked my family why I "got excited" when I saw the wrestlers on tv with no shirts on. Everyone laughed but I didn't understand why no one answered my question.

Thank you for the depth and openness of your story. I am 58, a former Christian pastor and just came out 3 weeks ago (yes, at 58 years old). I am still struggling to reconcile my view of Scripture with what I know to be true about me, Like you, I prayed and prayed and repented and repented and nothing changed. No matter how many times I laid this temptation at the foot of the cross, it followed me home. I was also married but for 23 years to a really lovely woman, That didn't fix anything and, in fact, made things worse, Our marriage has ended (obviously) and I am not looking for another relationship any time soon, 23 years requires a LOT of grieving. Maybe sometime next year I'll find out what it's like to feel love for and be loved by another man. I do know that there is NO CONDEMNATION for those who are in Christ Jesus. Even we walking abominations are free from Condemnation because of Jesus. I'm gonna camp there as I navigate what it is to live authentically instead of self protectively and deceitfully. Thank you again for sharing your story, It encouraged me today

Hey Man- I completely understand what you have been experiencing. I grew up a preachers kid and went to a Christian university. I prayed that God would take away my attractions to men and help me become straight. Like you, that never happened. You are who you are and I can tell that you are working through things. I am 54 now and don't think that becoming straight is the answer. People attracted to the same sex have to decide what is right for them. God loves you no matter what and his love is not based on our conduct but on Christ' sacrifice for us. As you live your life, I know that you will continue to grow and discern.

You are fighting a battle that many gay men fight. Religion vs your sexuality. I fought it for a long time. Then I read an article by a nun that was a lesbian, and she shared about her journey fighting against being gay and finally accepting it. She came to the conclusion that being gay was a gift from God, it all depended on how you used it, how you lived your life. That was eye opening for me. In time, I realized that I was gay and there wasn't anything I could do about it. It was simply a fact. And it wasn't the end of the world. Now, I do my best to live a good life and I don't worry about religious things. Religion stopped working for me. I have been with my partner for 24 years and life is good. When I learned to dump the christian guilt and embrace life, things got better.

Wow. Where do I start? I'll keep it short and to the point. I relate to everything you just said. I'm older than you (70 years old). Grew up in a small town in North Mississippi where I continue to live today. Like you I grew up in a small, conservative, Christian family so I've always been at odds about my sexuality. I've never felt the need to "come out". In short I just live the best Christian life I know how. I am actively involved in my church. My business is a very private thing to me and I have learned that even though I'm gay it doesn't change who I am. I have a million other thoughts but I'll close by saying how much I appreciate your openness and honesty. Looking forward to many more videos. Greetings from North Mississippi.

You are adorable and very cute! I did not come out until I was 34, married to a woman for 13 years and my daughter was 9. It was equally the most difficult yet liberating experience in my life. I was raised Christian and it was a real struggle to accept myself as gay. Please continue sharing your story since it does help others to know that we are not alone! Big hugs to you handsome!

51 here also catholic struggled as well. Finally had to come to the realization that this is what I'm supposed to be. Ended up getting married to my partner of 15 years and we live just fine and are pretty much accepted. God loves you the way you are and would have made you thus way if he didn't. Your a handsome guy and I hope you and your partner continue to have a great and happy relationship

This resonates so much, 31 here, still in denial. Thank you for sharing

This video and it's content made my hair stand up bubba. Still fighting those two battles and I'm 68

Just came across this. What drew me here was the music. I’ve always celebrated Christmas with traditional music. Hadn’t really expected anything more. My gift to you in return is simple. Know that God loves you. All of you. You seek what you’ve already found. All that remains is to share that love. He has welcomed ALL parts of YOU. It would hurt him to refuse. See you in heaven

Thank you for sharing your story, Brandon. It sounds like you have a ton more to share by the sounds of it...looking forward to tuning in again!

Thank you for be so brave and sharing this. I'm 24 and after a lots of things I decided to not more waiting for a miracle or heal. And I told my parents that I'm getting to know a guy! And I told my parents, again that I'm gay! Now I have 4 months with this guy! And he loves me so well and shows me life in a incredible way! I'm still having some conflicts in my mind about being gay and having a boyfriend but I'm really open about this to God. And I always opened up my heart to Him. Thank u!

I love your open and honest conversation. I hope you never feel guilty or feel you need to change ever again.

I knew I was different at a young age, too. I grew up strict Catholic, and I tried to "pray away the gay" in my teens. I suffered with depression in my late teens and early 20s. I never acted on my impulses and didn't come out until I was 40. I stopped going to church but never stopped believing in God or praying. I finally saw that I was okay with the way God made me. I haven't read it, but it's been recommended: The Children Are Free: Reexamining the Biblical Evidence on Same-sex Relationships. All the best. 🤗❤

love your story.looking forward to more😊

Love this! Smile, God already has a perfect Son. What he wants is me and you with all our imperfections. Congrads on the BF--I think he's the lucky one.

Thanks for sharing. I can definitely relate to some of your struggles. :)

I really liked your coming out story. You're down to earth, articulate, and easy to relate to. People will find a lot of inspiration and commonality from your experiences. Best of luck to you and I hope to see more videos in the future.

I have seen many of these videos and they’re all helpful. This one spoke to me directly and I’m 32. Thank you sooooo much. Blessings!

Gay and Episcopal, I feel for you brother.

I feel for you man. Can relate to being conflicted about faith & sexuality - can be a difficult struggle. It may not seem possible to just choose one and give up the other because both are important parts of you. So they need to be reconciled. Some people seem to have achieved that and maybe they can be helpful to you - through comments on your videos or through books on the subject - a lot has been written on being gay and Christian. I'm afraid I can't be much help there 'cause haven't really resolved it for myself. But one bit of advice i would have - don't worry about your "age" or attractiveness - you're quite attractive. And seem to be genuine and have a good heart. Best wishes to you. I hope you find genuine self-acceptance and peace.

You’re great, Brandon. Beautiful spirit, love just pours out of you. You are an enormous light and encouragement in this world. Also gorgeous and hilarious and your boyfriend is blessed to have you.💜🤩💙

I needed this today, I soooo resinate

Please keep sharing more stories!!!!!!!!

Its a struggle man....i grew up in the church myself feeling the same way. So I get it.. continue to live in love man. And this Grey sweat pants are hard for EVERYONE lol had to throw a joke in there..

Thank you for sharing and may the peace of Our Beloved Lord be with you Always. Your genuine expose of life’s struggle is helpful and reassuring. God Bless you. Stay true to yourself.

You're awesome, you are just being true to yourself ❤ relate much

Late to the video, but great story. Also, there are so many follow-up stories: dating girls, marrying, falling in love with a man while in the military, etc.; wish you could make those. Anyhow, hope you're doing well and happy!

Thanks for sharing your story and I hope that with each day you come closer to finding that peace which you truly seek. Although I am a fair bit older than yourself, I also grew up Catholic having endured a very similar struggle with being gay and reconciling this with religion. I understand the internalised guilt, pain and shame that this can bring and this shared lived experience! I feel compelled to reach out to you and reassure you that you are on the right path. As much as we all need to reach our own conclusions as to our spiritual beliefs, for me it has helped to research and understand the different theological differences between the Jesus of history, Jesus of Faith and for that matter, religion altogether. Although I truly believe that there is no way that any human could have all the answers, I know that if there is a God, it is in no way what we have have taught to believe. (That goes for any religion) You are a beautiful in every way (on the inside and out) and you are exactly the way you are meant to be! God would not set out to test you/us or punish us or have us abstain or live a life of lies, as we are worthy like all those who would wish to deny us, of finding love! For those who think or preach otherwise are the ones who are ultimately truly being tested! Also, there are allot of real world explanations for lots unusual spiritual experiences, I too have had similar strange occurrences growing up, that for me, were later explained by sleep paralysis! You deserve the abundance of happiness, keep on searching for your truth.

Thank you for making this!

Thanks for sharing. I appreciate your authenticity and humility. I can relate to much of what you are saying.

Hey! Thank you for sharing your story!

This is the most relatable coming out story I've watched to date. Please reach out. I'd like to chat more! Thank you for sharing your story.

Love your heart and humbleness. Continue to pray for wisdom. ❤️💯🤚🏽

Thank you for sharing your story! Mine is very similar and I was married also for 5 years, my divorce was just finalized in December 2020 so its still kind of fresh and also sucked that we went through this during a pandemc as well, but I am doing a little bit better each day and counseling weekly is really helpful too! Wishing you the best! Also I think its crazy amazing how you are able to talk about the deliverances and other stuff that you have been through while staying so put together!

Thank you for sharing your story! I also was raised in a very conservative Christian home and it's not easy getting over all that guilt and shame. If there is one thing I would like to share it would be that I think our parents that taught us this particular way of viewing life tried to give us the very best that they knew; however, they don't know what they don't know. Through my path of seeking greater understanding about life and God I have found that if you can allow a space in your heart for God to be bigger than the things we were taught, it all makes more sense. I wish you the very best on your journey, never forget that you are dearly loved.

Great video. You did a great job telling your story!

Thanks for sharing your story!

I enjoyed hearing your first video, i too understand. Wishing you the best. 🤗 🤗

I get you!!! These are the stories I love to hear.

Don't put yourself down like that man, you are an attractive person ♥

Hi Brandon, thank you so very much for giving us part of your precious story. I appreciate it more than I can say. It was such a blessing, and at the same time heart-wrenching to hear how much you have endured (conversion therapy, eleven exorcisms, marriage!). Like you, and so many others who have commented, I have faced the same turmoil as a gay Christian, longing to do what is right in God's sight, while believing in the possibility that this part of us might be acceptable; even beautiful and life-giving, rather than abominable. It's encouraging and wonderful to see your humility and your commitment to God, having come to your current stage of (tentative) acceptance after so much suffering and earnest effort to do what you believed was necessary to please God. You have a beautiful heart. I can't claim to know with certainty how God sees our sexuality (and how He intends us to live out this part of us that I believe He designed). However, I personally tend toward believing in the possibility of reconciling loving gay relationships theologically - though pastorally, I'm not sure what that should look like within the church. I'm not sure if this would be helpful to you, but if you would like some elaborated theological perspectives on this, I have found "Two Views on Homosexuality, the Bible, and the Church" from the Counterpoints series to be a great resource, written in a somewhat debate-like format. In it, two scholars take the traditional Christian view, and two take an affirming view (seeking to make the case for accommodating homosexuality). All of them strike me as sincere and never hostile toward each other - such a rarity in these conversations. Perhaps it will be of some value to you in seeking theological reconciliation. God bless you. May you be filled with His love each day, and love Him with all your being! I'll be praying from my heart that God leads you to full reconciliation and peace in your seeking - whatever the ultimate conclusion may be.

Thanks for sharing, Im 64, married for 30 years, christian and still gay, only God knows why we don’t change, we are not alone!

Thank you for this video, we need more of these stories. As a gay 29 year old gay christian I miss these stories in the discussion especially in discussion with christians with a traditional view of sexual orientation, alot of times these people don´t recognize the difference between "sexual behavious" and orientation.... God bless.

I hope you found your way to a happy life. Thank you for your service.

Brandon, your story makes me want to offer you some consolation if I can. One day, when I was about your age, I read Psalm 139, then went for a walk in the woods. It was not my first time to read this psalm, but for some reason that particular day, its words rang a new chord inside me. "O God, you have searched me and you know me; you know when I sit and when I stand; when I lie down and when I wake up. Before a word is on my tongue, you know it better than I do. Where can I run from you, my God? If I fly up to the heavens, there you are; if I cover myself beneath the depths of the sea, you are there beside me. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle far across the waters, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will bear me up. For you have laid your hand on me. You created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. My frame was not hidden from you when you shaped me in the secret place, when you wove me together in the deeps. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works, O God, all of your works are marvelous. I know that full well." It dawned on me that day that if I really knew how marvelously, wonderfully, fearfully made all of God's works were, and I was one of them, who was I trying to fool by insisting to myself that there was something wrong with me because I was gay? And more than that, whose were the voices that were saying that to me inside my head? You say, Brandon, that there is/was something "off" about your proclivity for attraction to men, that you underwent eleven exorcisms and other sorts of correction to the "demons" inside of you, but your prayers to not be gay were never answered. Listen to the words of the psalm. Perhaps God doesn't want us to pray that we become something other than what God intended for us in the act of creating us. Perhaps God only wants us to recognize, and praise, the marvel that God made us exactly as we are.

I can totally relate with you ❤️

Bless you x! Such a honest response x! Hugs to you x

You re amazing, you life is a mirror of mine. I am double your age and don’t have the courage you do! You are loved by God. Live your life honestly.

thank you for your honesty - I came out at age 58 just two years ago after a lifetime having difficulty reconciling being gay - the issues you describe are very pertinent to me - the skip of the heartbeat at seeing a naked man - only natural. The Bible says about unnatural practices - it would be unnatural for me to lie with a woman but natural for me as a gay man to lie with a man. I never have had a girlfriend. The desire for the love and companionship of another man is a natural desire when gay. I guess a true relationship is physical, sexual of course and this should be a beautiful expression of giving and receiving - but also emotional and spiritual and when Christians we should be able to live life in union with the qualities of love benefitting our lives and we can love God and serve God within our partnership. It should be enhancing to our lives and is the ultimate sociability and intimacy men can share. The Church does aim for monogamous loving relationships, but how do you get there? You can't order that like from Amazon - cannot order a guy that will fit those requirements. I have only had one boyfriend and that failed - I realise it was too soon for me after coming out - there is certain learn process - I am so glad you mentioned masturbation as that is natural too especially for single men and seldom gets mentioned - we are moving towards more openness though. exploring one's own sexuality can be a stepping-stone before being able to share it with another man - Will I meet a man - God knows, but I believe we can pray for this along with our other thoughts - sex should be an enhancement for people not a guilt trip. God wants what is best for us and doesn't want us to hurt ourselves or others along the way. Also being gay is like a hybrid and can embrace the sensitivities of life including care and art etc. As Christians we need to be mindful of love's qualities - God is love. Since coming out I have enjoyed the loving embrace of the two churches I am involved with and maybe wonder if there is some form of ministry within this. Sorry to have written more than I thought - God bless

Thank you for sharing your heart and being real

I am with you, I totally get what your feeling. I have no answers, but I am searching.

Wow as a woman who has done deliverance on people before I wonder why I can't be delivered from being a bisexual with preference for women being soooo huge ...since I accepted I am gay it's like I can't go back to pretending to being straight no matter how much I wish I didn't come out to myself and a few others ...I love this channel ..

Thanks for sharing. I'm a believer in Christ and I will let him judge me when the time comes. If I find true love with another male that's my choice as a sinner and I'll pray for mercy.

Love your video it's amazing

I feel like you are telling my story. Is there any way I could talk to you privately? I really loved this. It's the best video I've ever seen. Thank you.

Last summer I dreamt I met God and I started bawling my eyes out saying how sorry I was for being bisexual and God literally rolled his eyes at me and was like 'don't worry about it' and I immediately felt this wave of shock and relief go over me that was still there when I woke up. We overthink things I think and need to justify ourselves and are so anxious about everything, but now when I get like that I just imagine a really chilled out God shrugging and being like 'are your intentions good? yes. You just want to love someone and be loved back. Just keep doing your thing and making the most of what I've given you.' Can't argue with that

Wow I stumbled across your story looking for a movie called hacksaw ridge. . I'm so moved by the things you were trying to explain. Hang in there.

Thanks for the great video. And a special thanks for keeping it real! took a lot of courage. I come from the same background and the same brand of Christianity and I am here to say it is possible to reconcile one's faith with being gay, but it really does take an act of God to make it happen. BTW I really recommend a great little book entitled "The Children Are Free" which offers an alternative exegesis of the Big Five "clobber" Bible passages. Anyway at this point in my life I am fully out, and happier in my life than I have ever been and for me the last step was to be able to approach God without shame or fear and feel closer to Him than I ever have in my life. And I know for a fact that God is bigger than they ever told me He was.

You’re an excellent communicator, thank you for sharing yourself in deep sincerity. I appreciate you and hope the best for you. Are you kidding, Not the most attractive guy? Not true.

God loves you. You are perfectly and wonderfully made. I feel you bro to my core. I think the best place to start is to simply ask God to help you to love yourself as He loves you. I think freedom start with loving yourself has God love you.

You are loved. More then you will ever know. All my best to you young brother

I'm gay and christian and just coming to terms with it this late in life at 55.

this is amazing... wow

Anyone struggling with this same situation should read the short book called “This I Know” by Jim Dant. Everything he says in the book is backed up NOT ONLY with the Bible scripture, but also what it meant in that time in history when it was written. There wasn’t even a word “homosexual” in biblical times. In Bible history, a way to shame a foreigner or make someone lose their pride, was to gang rape the man by members of their hierarchy. In the Bible, the term “to make one known” meant exactly that. People confuse men having sex with other men verses in the Bible as the same as being “homosexual.” The book also states what the term “abomination” meant in biblical times. It is nothing like what people mean today. It will open your eyes to the truth instead of just believing what is consistently passed from family member to family member: being ashamed of whom God created you to be. If the purpose of being created was for the sole purpose of creating offspring, why are some people born sterile? Also, if being gay is wrong, why are some people born intersex? Intersex is never spoken of in biblical times. Does that mean they are damned for hell? No! God above all things is pure unconditional love. That love is far above the comprehension of mans mentality. Never let evil infiltrate your mind into believing you are less and not worthy of Gods love. Every part of you was made in Gods image and is perfect just as you are. Selah

Thank y ok u for this video. I've been trying to find videos like this

Yes tell us more about your story.

You're a beautiful person, and God LOVES beautiful people. I have (sadly) had the experience of some VERY "ugly" people in the church. God didn't reply, simply because God loves you JUST THE WAY YOU ARE !

You're such a good and interesting storyteller. Please come back to KZfaq and upload all these other stories. Like falling in love in the military, your conversation therapy stories....all the other ones you mentioned in this video too. I hope you upload very soon. Last request: Can you make videos with your boyfriend please???

i was born and rise as a christian. i did almost all the same things like you and to be honest, nothing helped me to "change" so was good to hear your story. i just feel like you, by the way greetings from colombia.

I think you ARE attractive. You have a beautiful, winsome and authentic presence, and I am sad to hear of how much struggle you have had to endure. Unfortunately, still such a common story. Maybe you are here to help others similar to yourself. You'd be good at it!

Love your story!! Always be yourself and let your light shine for Jesus, no bushels :) Thank you for sharing your story and I hope you make more videos! :)

I a born again Christian who just realized last year I was gay. I am still struggling on my views on this as well. I do pass as straight and assumed I was straight for most of my life, I guess I was so in the closet, I was even in the closet from myself. I also want to add I to have had a lot of spiritual experiences as well like you have stated.

Your story is my story… I'm a bit older than you but I went through the exact same thing as you... I would encourage you to come to terms with the fact that you can be a Christian and be gay… God doesn't hate you… the Bible actually says very little about the subject in the context of the whole scripture… It's very minute compared to so many other things it talks about… I finally realize that all the fighting and begging God was useless… It's like God's voice one day said to me "I know the deepest darkest places in you because I'm God… You think you can fool me and fake the fact that you're attracted to men? I know I've always known and I still love you "the world is a fallen place so there's lots of things that are not the way they're supposed to be but we can rest in the grace of God… I have found after leaving my faith for many many years a place in a local United Methodist Church where people are loving and accepting and allow me to live out my faith with some really amazing people and serve God and learn read the Bible pray together and most of all serve together and doing the good things that I've always thought being a Christian was about… Making the world a better place and building the kingdom of God here… Keep living your story… You are an amazing person!

Great story man! Sucks you don’t make content anymore cause your testimony and journey could help so many :) hope all is well brother of Christ ✊🏽

I grew up evangelical. Been in exodus support groups. Was married too. And on my own existential journey for a while now too. I dont have answers either. But there are some resources I found helpful. The Water to Wine conference in KC. Disarming Scripture by Derek Flood. KZfaq channels The Reformation Project, Matthew Vines, Justin Lee (GeekyJustin), Kathy Baldock. Feel free to reach out if you want to.

You are so sweet and have a beautiful spirit. I'm a female struggling with my own internalized homophobia and compulsory heterosexuality I've been married and have two children. I'm 35 years old and go back and forth between believing that I can live a quote unquote normal life with a man and admitting that I've been attracted to females my entire life or as early as one can experience attraction. I just want to say there are a lot of lgbtq churches out there that Are inclusive and accepting of the community.

I think you're moving in the right direction. I think that if you view religion, not from the perspective of a particular church or pastor, but if you learn about it historically, and you examine the many, many different viewpoints (all of them claiming that they are right and correct) on what it means to be a Christian, that you may be able to reconcile your faith and your sexuality. Christ never once mentions homosexuality, but he often speaks about the evils of wealth and avarice, yet many Christian churches and preachers condemn homosexuality, but praise the wealthy and even advocate increasing wealth and becoming rich. Learn about Christianity from a variety of viewpoints and sources, and it may help you to accept and be at peace with who you are. Best wishes for your future!

Hey man there are lots of us out there! I gave up reconciling, I don't find sufficient reason to believe nonsense. Keep going stay strong!

To thine own self be true. God has made us special.

We have pretty much the same story. Grew up not identifying all the way with guys. Love hanging with girls. Was super flamboyant until 8th grade. That’s when I started noticing boys in the locker room vs girls. 9th grade I went the super quiet route so people couldn’t pick up me being “different” All the while going to church trying to pray the “gay” away. Dated girls and thought getting married to the one right girl would get rid of these desires. Read books and considered going to an Exodus conference to change my orientation. Proposed to one girl and was turned down. Best rejection ever. Many years later I am now accepting this ain’t changing and at the beginning of 2023 I said no more fighting. Let me get in the flow…as soon as I did that God started speaking to me even more. I have peace, joy, freedom now that I have come out to myself. Looking to get into a relationship that God has spoken to me about and when the time is right, will come out to whoever else I feel needs to know. I think a big reason why more of us are becoming comfortable in claiming our sexuality and Christianity is for Gods live to be demonstrated. We aren’t demon possessed, mentally-ill or sinning if we are producing the fruit of the spirit and keeping true to our orientation. In fact, I would argue we are living our truest highest lives by being totally truthful with who we are attracted to. Thanks for sharing

God works in mysterious ways! Here's hoping u and ur partner have a long happy life together!

Interested in your feelings about books by Troy Perry of MCC and Rev Dr. Mel White of Soulforce. God be with you.

Your in my prayers.

Congrats dude!

Wow! I totally understand what your saying and thinking. i was born and raised Trinity Pentecostal all my life. had a good child hood, great family.. but i was just gay and i knew it from an early age. i just wish i had more guys to talk to like i was raised. everything you say and experienced i have faced. do you guys have a support group for christian guys like us? i need help and someone to talk to.. anything would help

Brandon, I can relate whole-heartedly to your coming out story as it is very similar to mine, though I never came out. It is too late for me in this life. I have found some recent publications that has helped me tremendously in reconciling the spiritual with the state of being gay. "God and the Gay Christian" by Matthew Vines, and "Walking the Bridgeless Canyon" by Kathy Baldock. These authors also have you tube channels with links so you can study their concepts further. And there are others on YT who have affirmative positions on this subject, like pastor Mike Maeshiro. Hope this helps. God bless. :)

I can appreciate the struggle...gay, Christian, and so NOT Internet skilled. Not easy but trusting God with everything that happens!

I am Christian and I love God. I come out when I was 17 to my parents. My mother was furious and almost disowned me and my father nearly got a heart attack but I had to do it as living double live and using my girlfriend who knew about me as cover up was exhausting. Anyway in the end my parents accepted me. As I said I am a Christian and love god and believe God made me the way I am. For me it matters that I love Jesus and I accept him in my heart as my true God and my saviour if that’s not good enough so be it. I am now in an 8 years on relationship and I never been happier being me. My parents love and accept my partner and that’s all that matters to me. One day we would all find out whether the scripture is right or wrong. When I am judged I would ask Jesus if what I am is wrong why he created me in the first place but I am sure I wouldn’t need to as he loves me as I am. You are beautiful and the sweet and I would say just have your fate and enjoy your live. God love you the way you are.

Hello. As an ex-theist now agnostic I find you story very fascinating. And a point you make about, “how can god find this evil if I don’t hurt anyone” I actually agree with that. Ask yourself this question “am I insulting god by being happy” I’ve seen various gay people be celibate and or marry someone of the opposite gender, somehow it works for them but it clearly doesn’t for you. It’s glad to see that your happy but if you ever think that only god can make you fulfilled take this into consideration, if god is the most merciful living creature in all of existence does it seem rational that he would want his flawed child to torture and feel shame about themeselves their whole life. It’s understandable if what they are doing harms people but being gay isn’t inherently amoral. Same sex couples can raise kids just like Hetrosexual couples, according to Cornell university, and it’s more than just an act of sex. It’s emotional bonding between two consenting adults. But if you ever find yourself in a scenario that you no longer “want to serve homosexuality” that’s fine, your life is your life and if that makes you happy go for it but I doubt it will. Whatever you do make sure that your personal beliefs don’t cause you or anyone else harm because unlike some people I believe we deserve to be happy and love regardless of our actions.

HOWDY from the lone star state of Texas sending you lots of love, hugs and kisses