I'm obsessed with the fact that you were so worried that no one would watch a 3 minute video, and now here we all are, watching you talk for a half hour straight.

When you said “I didn’t know postpartum depression was a TYPE of depression. Not timing” it seriously just knocked the wind out of me. All of this time I had no idea there was a difference and my son just turned a year old. Elyse I had tears streaming down my face because Every. Single. Word. You said about your postpartum experience was EVERYTHING I’ve been through and no one talks about it and it feels like no one understands it. And without you giving full disclosure of how deep those feelings really went and how hard it really was. I know. I just know. You don’t even need to say it. I wish in those darkest moments of new motherhood, we could’ve just held each other. I was desperate for someone to validate my own feelings. I know this is an extremely difficult and vulnerable topic to discuss but I cannot tell you how many woman you could be helping and even saving by talking about it. I wish I saw this small part of your video when I was going through the thick of it because it just tremendously impacted me. I am so thankful you chose to keep it in. Thank you.

Elyse✨ I feel like your my little bright spot on the internet. I’m new to your community and very much in love. Appreciate all the awareness you bring to ADHD and mental health 💕

I have NEVER heard anyone talk about the difference between time and type in post partum. Please advocate more on this in your content.

I'm only 13 minutes into this video and I've already said, "love you Elyse", out loud at least 3 times. You're an absolute gem. Love you. ❤️

This is so amazing, Elyse. I love that you're doing these longer videos here. ♥

hey elyse! cameras overheating is a VERY common problem with content creators and i always try to give them advice that your memory card is probably too quick for your camera. often times creators buy a card with the most storage because they don’t want to clear out the card, but i guarantee it would be much more useful for you to film, dump your footage on a hard drive and format after every video. get a 64gb. that’s more than enough space. that could also be why your batteries are dying so fast because your camera is working twice as hard to try and keep up with the speed of the card. i can go more into detail about what the symbols and stuff means on the card, or i would also just recommend doing your own research. there’s a ton of easily accessible information that can help with your workflow. anyway, hope this was helpful😁

You are by far my favorite human to have discovered online. You seem so genuine and kind and lovable plus you're wildly talented and super funny. This 26 min video went by too fast lol. I'm so grateful you exist and decided to share your life and stories. Hope this didn't come off weird 🤣

As a person who has been there…let me just say that the transition between “not a mom” to “mom” is way way harder than the transition between “mom of 1” and “mom of 2” All the stuff I wanted to experience with my first baby I actually got to enjoy with the 2nd one. There is no reason to expect that the postpartum depression you had with the first will happen with the 2nd. It didn’t for me. The 2nd came with all the joy and appreciation I felt guilty not feeling with the 1st. If you want another baby…do it. You know the possibility of the postpartum depression now and can have tools in place should it happen again. But….also know that for SO many people, the 2nd baby is a restorative experience. Oh, and we waited 4 years between kids because of that fear. The wait and the age gap was good for us.

Elyse, I think everyone shares the same feeling. We all feel like we know you. We all feel genuine love for you. In this intense (often times negative) world we are living in, that is a beautiful thing. Just by simply existing and sharing your life, you make millions of people happy. Thank you, Elyse. 🥰

Elyse! You're such a force of nature in the most gentle and kind way. I adore you to bits. So thankful to the internet for allowing me to find you and have you gracing my feed and ears among the millions of other humans that feel the same way. I'm always so pumped to watch not only your 3 minute videos but your 30 minute ones too!

I had ppd after my first baby and did not recover until I gave birth to my second baby 20 months later. Don't rush yourself. I gave birth to 8 children in 13 years and have strggled to live with or through 64 years of treatment resistent major depressive disorder. I am benefiting from your internet content. Your TikToks were my bits of light. I am thrilled to discover these longer videos. So delighted you are sharing yourself with this world. Thank you😊

I love when her baby started saying, "mama" she just paused and was like, "....what?" Lol I love it 😂❤️

For anyone just watching this now: if you are in the thick of PPA or PPD, or your child is within his/her first 5 years of life, do not write off having another child. My daughter is 5 and I just now feel like I could have another baby and want one so much. Do not give up hope for healing and complete transformation! Even if it takes several years. Up until last year I never planned to go through another pregnancy/postpartum time, and this year I feel totally different about it.

You can see how much you enjoyed making this video! The "I Got Joy!" hat was perfect! Thank you for sharing the joy of being a perfectly imperfect human being!

I had bad postpartum depression after my first, worse because of a traumatic birth of a BIG baby boy and the recovery of that. I struggled to bond with him for a long time. It's so so hard to talk about because you're SUPPOSED to be happy at that time. We did end up with a surprise baby sister 3 years later that he adores. They are best friends and my pregnancy, birth, and experience with her as a newborn was healing for me. Everything works out. There's nothing wrong with choosing to have ONE child. For any reason. Don't let anyone make your feel guilty.

LOVED this, Elyse! I've had 2 babies and not 1 single person ever, EVER mentioned postpartum anxiety. When we took my son home from the hospital I was so afraid of anyone walking up or down the stairs with him. I kept envisioning him falling and being 'broken.' The vision just played over and over in my head. I think that's the first memory that I have of PPA but it got so much worse. My anxiety over something happening to my kids or me became crippling. It was only when my second baby was a year old and covid was all around us that I finally went to speak to someone and realized that I wasn't going crazy, I actually had postpartum anxiety. I'm so grateful when I hear other women talk about it, addressing it like it's a real thing. I think the internet is full of amazing moms who make it look easy, but the truth is we're all doing the best we can and treading hard under the surface. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing your story with us. P.S - 'Is it a premonition or is it just anxiety?' Has become my personal mantra and something I ask myself daily because lord knows my brain likes to latch onto the idea of premonitions! 😂

I had the worst postpartum depression with my daughter, my first baby, good to note it was ‘97 and there was very little info about it, that when I had my son, 10 years later, I was acutely aware of the signs, symptoms and how to get better help. Luckily I didn’t have many postpartum symptoms with my son but like you said it was hugely because of timing. Our timing was right and it took that stress off of me to give me that time to heal myself physically and emotionally after he was born. Heal you. You’ll know when. You’ll know where. Take your time. Sending all of you hugs!

I have never felt so understood by anyone regarding postpartum depression and anxiety. Thanking for putting into words what I’ve struggled with for over a year, almost 2.

It is not very often on the Internet content creator has such a genuine vibe, loved this vid, love your energy! 💜

Your taco story and school dance pictures is what got me hooked on watching you!! It's helped me embrace my awkwardness for real!! I love you and your genuineness!! It really keeps me thinking positive!!

Ma'am. My husband put my wild 4 year old to bed in the time that I watched this video, and I legitimately thought I'd been watching for about 5 minutes. I could watch your videos all day long and not feel like my day was wasted. Thank you for being you. 💕

I just wanna say: your intro totally gives “The Office” vibes, and I’m totally here for it! 😍

My God , FINALLY someone who understands the suffer from PostPartum … Gave Birth to my now 2.5 years old Daughter … People keep telling me to have another one , But NOBODY understands how i Really feel 😭 Elyse Finally someone to actually find the words to explain … I’m Not as lucky as Elyse is , I had / Have absolutely NO SUPPORT OR UNDERSTAND from my husband . He keeps telling me if i refuse to have another baby he’ll take our daughter away from me & create a family with someone else … The story is deep but the surface is that NO BODY UNDERSTANDS THE FEAR I HAVE JUST THINKING FOR ANOTHER BABY 😓😓

Honestly, thank God for you Elyse! You are the ray of light I need when the clouds seem to follow me. I could watch you all day. Awesome Video. Can't wait for your next one! ❤️

I chose the viola because all the other girls wanted the violin and the music teacher basically begged me to try it. Best decision I ever made!

I’ve always suffered from depression & anxiety. After my first son, I thought I would die of post pardom. Thankfully he was an angel and that helped. With son number 2 I felt wonderful, no depression but I had people in place to help just in case. With son number 3 I was great until he was one & I fell hard. The worst depression & anxiety EVER !!! It took awhile and I’m still on meds but I’m great & son number 3 is now 23 years old & I have 7 granddaughters ❤ I’d say have another for August but take some time off & have people in place to help you when you need them. Lastly, walk through your next pregnancy closely with your Doctor 😊

I am so SO happy to learn that you're a viola player! It fits perfectly! Orch dork here & violinist (second violinist mostly) and viola players were always delightfully unique and my people. Ha!

I had to pause at 16:49 to say two things. 1) I love your “editor” mentioning the broccoli and that you are so real that you didn’t refilm it. I struggle with this myself and it’s kept me from creating content so thank you. 2) I think you and Jona (I can’t remember if there is a h 😳😬) would make amazing adoptive parents. I’m only an outsider who was adopted but you look like you have so much love to give. I’ve struggled with D&A my whole life and thankfully didn’t have PP. I can’t imagine it being worse or different than what I’ve felt recently. If it’s in your heart definitely consider adoption. I’m so very thankful it’s a gift I was given! You are amazing! Off to finish the rest!

The part where you talked about the tumultuous situation of wanting another kid and not being quite ready to take it on again- really spoke to me. I really love your honesty about literally everything. ❤️

I really want to see more of you playing the viola, then or now. Definitely would love you sharing pics and videos of different parts of your life. You are so full of life !

Just sent my sister an “absolutely not” hat for her birthday. I couldn’t stop talking about you when I went to visit her last month. Love seeing you here on KZfaq!

I applaud and celebrate your willingness to be vulnerable to the world. You are a treasure. ❣

This was the fastest 28 minutes ever!! I could watch more 🙌 Love this and thank you for being so open!!!

I love what you said about you coming into your family in a very chaotic time for your family. I've never thought about it that way, and it resonates with how Gwena, a gentle parenting KZfaqr, talks about her oldest child (did not start gentle parented) having a very different mom than her littles. In fact every child one has gets a different parent bc they come into their parents' lives at a different time, with different levels of stress, experience, different family dynamics, etc. And sometimes we *think* we're at a good place to have another kid, but something happens during that 9 months that completely changes our capabilities,and we have to just try to adapt on the fly. Good on you for taking the pressure off and letting a healthier future you decide when & if she's ready 👍

I loved everything about this! I just had to tell you that when you said "This is going to be a 5 hour long video" I immediately thought " Um, we would love that!" I say this on all of your socials, but it's true...you are such a light in the world, and you came along at a dark time, when we could all really appreciate you! Thank you for all that you create and share! I'm so excited for the longer form content, and all of the awesome opportunities that are coming your way. Sending much love to you and your family!

Hey Elyse, thanks for being so honest. My husband and I had a very similar experience. Raising little humans is a lot harder than the brochure. Xx

Thank you for sharing all that you have shared. You are such a bright light. You are generous with sharing all that you have shared with us, you don't hesitate to smile, and you sound so encouraging. I'm glad I found you on the internet. I think you have really embraced your life, and you enjoy it to it's fullest!

Elyse, this whole thing was just fantastic. Thank you so much for sharing this with us! I had PPA REAL bad with my first child and I completely relate to your sentiment. I went from "I want five kids!" to "...We're gonna take it one at a time," after my first child. After we had our second? Elyse, I cannot tell you how redeeming it was. Maybe it was because I didn't have a c-section the second time around so my insides weren't BATHED in antibiotics, killing all the bad AND good bacteria in me, thus making me crazy, but I remember a week after having our daughter looking at my husband and saying, "This is so bizarre. I feel normal. I DO NOT feel crazy. I feel calm. WHAT IS HAPPENING?!" Like someone else commented below, it was a very restorative experience. Now that may not be the case for everyone, but maybe it could be helpful to know. Also, I agree 100%. 0-1 kid was exponentially harder than 1-2. My son had just turned 3 and was the most amazing helper. I expected there to be so much jealousy but girl, this kid COULD. NOT. get enough of his sister. Enamored. ENAMORED. Now am I still of the mindset that we're going to take it one at a time? Yes. 😂 Because second children somehow all manage to be a completely different breed than firstborns, but after 2.5 years, I'm finally ready to start thinking about more. You're so right - take your time and have more when it feels right. Cheering you on! P. S. The viola story somehow made me want to tear up even more than the PPA/PPD story. Fellow musician here and being able to choose the instrument you want and to be unique in that way is a precious feeling! Love that your mom helped you in the way you needed and listened to you. What a woman.

I’m so happy that you can genuinely say you’re happy. Sounds like you’ve got the right people around you ❤️

I know this is at least a year old video, but I still wanna say thank you to Elyse & her whole team! You are my favorite content creator. I get really excited when I see you've made a video or when the algorithm blesses me with an old video I haven't seen. 😊

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for advocating for living with anxiety, mental health struggles, working life combined with mum life and so many other things. I’ve never watched someone that I related to in that way at all and it honestly means so much to me to see. I’ve been obsessed with your videos since I stumbled across the one about ordering coffee and being misheard on Facebook. You remind me that having a brain that works this way doesn’t mean we have to be limited. And that’s amazing. Xxx

Thank you for always showing up in this space so genuinely and vulnerably. No one ever has to wonder if you mean what you say because your authenticity just shines through in everything you do. You inspire all of us "undercover creatives" who wonder if our stories and voices matter. Your voice matters so much and brings much-needed light to the interwebs!

I at first was drawn to your content bc I’m hard of hearing and most of your things have captions on tiktok but I ended up staying because you really helped me get to a place in life where I could accept that not being polished and perfect all the time was okay. And I’ve gotten even my gram to watch your context about mental health, and we’re able to communicate and relate to each other easier now.

Oh, that's spot on. Massive attention that points to sudden success and our first reaction is to apologize. Not that you're Sorry, just the new role for a woman is scary and we innately try to mitigate the transition. I really think sorry has a total different definition for women anyway. Congratulations, sis❤ You shine in this medium!

I somehow found you early on and I've been laughing ever since. I find myself actually thinking while listening to you, , how much time is left, should I ⏸️ it just to make it last longer? Oh no what did she just say, whew I get to rewind it... you just make my ear balls happy!!! 🤣😍🤣

Love your content and can’t wait to see your other projects come to fruition 💕

I love love love these longer videos! You are so warm and caring and funny and REAL...and smart! You make me feel like my best friend does...safe, secure and highly amused 💜 Thank you for your content, Elyse.

So good!! Love getting to know more about you! You’re refreshingly authentic!

YES ELYSE!! PND felt incomparable with 'normal' depression for me. An entirely different type! So on the money. Also- I wasn't aware it can hit ANY TIME in the first 12 months post partum. I thought I was in the clear because I was fine, and then when he was four months old- wham! Hit me like a train. But I didn't get it at all on my following baby. Great video, love the long form 👍❤️

Yes yes yes I've been waiting for this since you teased it on Instagram! This is amazing, thank you so much for the long content! And for sharing so much of yourself with us, I wish nothing but the best for you and everything you want in life 😎

This was awesome! Thank you. Tears flowed when you said you are happy. So thrilled for you.

I will preorder your book the minute you tell us when it's available online. You are a shining star, one that we have needed during these past 2 1/2 years.

Every video that you put out is a gift. Thank you for your time and efforts. You make a massive difference in Folks' lives. ❤

Such a great video, it’s so refreshing how open and vulnerable you are. More of this!

I so appreciate your candor about your life and your struggles!! I struggled sooooo hard with PPD and PPA after my second kid. After years of IVF, I had virtually no depression or anxiety after my first. So I was gobsmacked when I was spiraling out of control and had no idea why after my second was born. I never wanted to unalive myself or my kids or anything so I didn’t think I had PPD. I just could not function on almost any level. I had a 16 month old and a one month old to care for so I shoved it all down and trudged on. Then a week later my husband and myself got covid (august of 2020!!) and my will to push through evaporated. I asked my doctor for help and started medication for about 6 months. One of the darkest times of my life and I sob every time I think about how I treated myself and my family during that time. I had my tubes tied because I am too terrified to be in that place again. Thank you for sharing with us.

I’m so glad you talked about being ok with only having one kid. I had a really traumatic delivery and now have medical conditions that would complicate a healthy delivery. And honestly, after I had my son, I felt complete. I do have anxiety about my son being an only child, and the stigmas around that in society, but my son is now 9 and he tells me all the time he loves being an only and his friends are so jealous. Lol.

This is one of the most pleasant people I've seen on the internet I feel lucky to have found this channel ❤

I love listening to you talk, you are so genuine. Love the longer video (I love the short ones too) this has allowed us to get to know you more. Honestly can't wait to see more content, super excited about the podcast. Keep being you !

This didn’t even feel like a long video, I loved it! It’s so refreshing having someone like you in this space. Thank you so much for sharing your story ❤️

you are one of the most likable people I've ever seen online Thank you for letting us into your life. You are amazing!!

You’re one of the few beautiful persons I have followed on TikTok since Covid. I love your content. You’re so genuine. Thank you for getting me through Covid. You have fabulous sense of humor❤

This was really beautiful to watch. I was fortunate enough to catch you at the taco story and have loved following your story, your honesty, and your beautiful life messages. I had only seen you on Instagram and am now subscribed on KZfaq (HOW DID I MISS THIS ARENA?). Thank you for being you Elyse, and for encouraging all of us to be our own person too xxx

THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT PPA! My ppa after my first child was debilitating. Thank you for using your platform to bring attention to this!

Omg! Thank you for your decision to keep going content creating!!! You’re one of the best people I’ve ever discovered on the internet, and I recently found out we live in the same neighborhood which is crazy!!! Thanks for all your work!

I so relate to the postpartum depression. I am so happy to hear you talking about this. You will help so many people. Thank you, beautiful elyse. ❤️

my absolute favourite person on the internet right now. you bring peace and joy and laughter to my life and i can’t thank you enough for that!

I loved this video so much! Thank you for all your content- it always puts a smile on my face or sends me into a full blown belly laugh ❤️

I love that I’ve been following you since before the taco debut. Haha You are so pure, genuine and kind. I love SO much what you are bringing to social media outlets. Keep shinning bright and spreading your light. ❤️ The world needs more people like you! ✨

Hi from Ireland! I absolutely love your content and feel very seen and heard by what you talk about and how you normalise anxiety in particular really helps me! I can't say enough nice things. Keep doing what you're doing you're amazing!

I absolutely love watching everything you create. I look for your new content daily 🥰

Your videos are such a light. They make me laugh and brighten my days!

"he one year mark of August being alive." ...also known as a birthday. Oh Elyse, I ❤️ you. #TheInternetsBestFriend

Loving this longer content!!! I'm supposed to be on vacation but ended up stuck in bed with covid (which is thankfully not super terrible). Watching this was a bright spot in my day! Loved getting to know you better!

This was so great! Thank you for always being willing to share so much. You’re such a gem, and everything you do is positively affecting people more than you know. ❤️

you’re so real and relateable, it’s so refreshing. thank you for being you.

I kinda love that I got in on your KZfaq before the 100k mark so I can imagine you reading my comment while sitting, scrolling and hugging your pillow as a possibly very real thing. Your how to save a life video got me good today. It’s… haunting. Definitely cried really hard because of things that are emotional in my life but if it was bad I wouldn’t have- Ty for the beautiful musical soul hug 🖤 I TRULY needed it.

I was really getting into this while having a snack of pickled okra and kosher baby dill pickles when I realized it was already over love you and love your content! you are making such a wonderfully positive difference in this world.

Love you and what you share with us. So excited for what you have to come, congrats Elyse

Loved this!!! I enjoy listening to you so much 💙 I can't wait for your future projects, I know they will be amazing 🙌🏻

Thank you for your openness about postpartum mental health issues. Awareness is so necessary.

I appreciate your content and delivery very much. Very excited about the longer vids. Watching them is like running into a favorite coworker in the hall, catching up for a few minutes, and then going our separate ways to different departments. It’s that quick happy jolt that leaves you looking forward to the next time💜

Thank you for this! Listening to you talk about how much you value your time, thank you for making our time watching YOU so well spent! I enjoy how overboard and all over the place you get with your stories but still manage to keep us all engaged and tracking with you! Can't wait for all that is to come! Keep on being so fantastically authentical and genuine. We hold the heart you wear on your sleeve. 💗

Postpartum was such a bitch. Thank you for sharing your story..definitely makes other moms feel like it’s not just us with those heavy feelings ♥️

Same for my youngest daughter - and she hid it so well that we had no idea how severe it was - and in her anxiety, she lashes out at the ones who love her the most (her husband and me). I applaud you for sharing one of the most sensitive part of your life!

This was awesome! Thank you for sharing your genuine, silly, sweet spirit with us!!

I love love love that you’re on KZfaq now with longer videos. Feeling blessed that I get to see you more. Love seeing your content ❤❤❤keep it up!

I never watch a video this long. It was nice to learn about you. Glad you are having success with content creating.

Genuine and authentic. Loved it!

I was already so excited for you when I heard you were having another birthday but knowing the significance of everything you went through after August makes it even better! So glad that you are in a place in your life that you feel ready for this.

You are amazing Elyse! Beautiful inside and out ❤ Please don’t stop being who you are! We need more people like you on KZfaq who are true and authentic. I also love your music 🎶

I just wanna say that when you apologized for explaining too much, you don’t have to do that! I personally always have so many questions about everything and that usually bothers people. Listening to you is always so fun and freeing because you answer all the questions I have by explaining things so thoroughly! I love the way you talk :)

Never been this early to a video, luv ya lady!!

❤️Thank you so much for sharing and for your vulnerability. I'm not a parent myself but I can only imagine how many people related to your story and felt seen. So grateful to get to be a part of your audience. Thank you for all your stories and joy you share. I hope you and your family have a wonderful week!

Love your genuineness. You are pretty special. Cant wait for the podcast and all that you will do :)

Actually cried hearing you talk about PPA. I have a 15 month old son and want to be the sort of person who can build a large family, but I’m just feeling like myself again and don’t know if I have what it takes.

The more you show us of yourself, the more we are able to see ourselves in you. That's been so incredibly important and helpful because when we're going through something we can think to ourselves "I'm not alone" and "If someone else can get through this and be happy / healthy / successful, then so can I!" Thank you for showing us the real you so that we may learn to become the real us.

I’m so glad to have found you awhile ago. You’re so relatable. So happy for you and your success.

Thank you so much for talking about PPD & PPA. It's so helpful to hear other people who have struggled with that, it needs to be talked about more.

"i tend to really over elaborate when someone asks a question" ... tell me you have ADHD without telling me you have ADHD hahaha.. love it. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD at 31, being 1 year post partum. also relate to the PPA/PPD knocking you out :( glad you're doing better. you're my favorite content creator and I feel so validated and heard whenever I watch your content .. i feel like we're the same person haha. sending love