Oh my god. I’m not trans! I have ocd! This has stopped me from sleeping! Thank you!

Uaving tocd is living hell,I feel like I lost my old self.

I’m going through this right now and it’s so stressful bc everytime I rule out why I’m not transgender it just comes back and kicks me down and makes me rethink everything I’ve ever done and makes me scared I will start wishing I was a woman there is nothing wrong with transgenders but I don’t wanna be a woman I’m very happy being a man but can’t get the thought out of my head what if I want to be a woman

I am a 16 year old male. and i’m perfectly fine being a male. currently do and always have. but out of nowhere one night the thought “what if i was a female?” popped into my head. next thing i know that’s all that’s on my mind and it’s still here after two months. then you start to question everything and why i’m overthinking so much and if it’s “a sign” or something. no hate to the trans community whatsoever because i’m bisexual and i love all my lgbtq+ brothers and sisters. but it’s just not who i am. and what’s worse is when you talk to yourself trying to control your thoughts but then your subconsciously contradict those thoughts with thoughts that try to fuck you up and make you question if who i really am. THESE THOUGHTS ARE SO UNCOMFORTABLE AND ANNOYING I JUST WANT THEM TO STOP!

I thought I was the only one! I am a male and I like being a male, but I keep having intrusive thoughts about being a transgender woman. I have no problem with transgenders, but I do not want to be a woman. Yet, I keep having thoughts about being a female and that I would be better as a female. It’s so annoying. I’m glad I’m not the only one with this.

I’m a cis girl and I constantly have “what if I’m a trans guy” moments. I look into my past and I remember moments when I act masculine and my heart drops. But all this constant reassurance is the OCD. I’ve gotten over it but my main battle rn is straight OCD :/

Sometimes it makes me feel like im in a denial. I’m male 19 yrs old.I constantly check my past if i had feminine moments. I had hocd before that and it was acceptable but this theme is not for most of us. Don’t let ocd make you think youre smoething youre not.We have to stay strong. At the end we dont have to do what we dont want to do.

I was actually super relieved when I found out that tocd is thing because it perfectly described what I was feeling. I was literally shaking and panicking for days because I thought I might be trans. It was awful. I have known what transgender is for years and I even have a friend who is trans. And I’ve never found myself identifying w male and I never showed any kind of signs. But suddenly one night like a week ago this thought just popped out, when I was looking at an anatomical picture of a man, ,,wait am i a man?? Should I look like this??” And I couldn’t stop thinking about it since, I even vomitted every day. Then I was okay cause I found out what tocd was but now I’m scared again, because I don’t feel as anxious, which also makes me question whether i am accepting that I might be trans. It’s horrible. I’m scared to dress up as male cause I fear that I will like it. But also I have anxiety (probably) so.. that makes feel a little bit better because it’s possible it’s just tocd. Thanks for this video, I’m gonna come back probably another 15 times xD Edit: I actually wrote this just in hope someone would reply yeah you definitely bave tocd

I’m so grateful for your videos . They don’t give me reassurance even though I do come here sometimes for reassurance however it does always give me clarity. And you always seem to hit it right in the nose . So thank you for that

Chrissie, you are such a wonderful presence in the OCD community. Your personality, empathy, and clear way of explaining concepts really make you stand out as an extra special advocate. I am currently working on obtaining my Master's in Counselling, and have identified the huge gap in knowledge of OCD amongst my fellow counsellors - and even amongst many professionals already in the field. I hope to work from an OCD-conscious lens; I see so many people suffering at the hands of well-meaning yet ignorant professionals. Thanks for your inspiration!

Omg 😭😭 I am so happy that this is being spoken about. Chrissie, you are my favourite OCD advocate. I have been dealing with this theme for seven years and it has been so hard. I am currently on a waiting list for more OCD therapy so I’m hoping it will help me. I have had some ERP in the past and tried lots of self help

I had been feeling so much better and i had been dealing with my ocd so well for almost a year. These thoughts would occasionally pop up but i would be able to push them away easily. A few weeks into lockdown the thought came up again and its been downhill ever since and i feel like its back to square one for me. I don't understand how I could feel so comfortable in my gender and my body a few months when now I'm just questioning every single thing about my identity I'm even scared to look in a mirror😭 I just want to go back to how I felt before.

You are amazing... 18:40 that last peace is so relatable and extremely true.. chrissy you have brought all the people here and who watch your videos hope and the courage to keep going. So much love ❤

Omg I've been having these thoughts scare me to death.

Thank you so much for your videos and help, your pocd video specifically because that theme specifically hit me like a train out of nowhere, and you helped me get through rought times and , well to sum it up your an amazing person for this, thank you.

I literally almost cried once I found the video because I been watching videos HOCD and I was like that similar to experience but instead of gay and trans. See this video just made me want to cry because I felt I was alone and I hated it I did. Like I told my mom and best friend but it they experience so they don’t know you know.

I had this HOCD mixed with TOCD and it's very debilitating in every waking hours... I felt alot of self disempowerment, guilt, shame and never ending reassurance even though it's plain that i like who i was and still am. tocd can really latch on any abstract thought, like doing aggressive things as a man, my ocd subconciously starts to bitch why you should'nt do this and it's fucking my entire life up!

Me!! Gosh, seeing it laid out like this makes me laugh because that ‘anxiety’ bit about it ‘being the beginning stages’ is SO TRUE. It’s so so so true!! Like it’s easier to laugh at it now because I’m starting to realise that this is ocd, but it’s also really really scary when you’re knee deep in it. Thank you so much for this video!

i’m so happy this video exists, thank you so much. it helped me so much.

I think this is my case, I was really desperate with my thoughts, never questioned my gender before all of this came to me, i had other obssessions before, including HOCD. It all started with the obssesion i could have cancer, stomach cancer and then other obssesions came to me, like: if I believe in God or not and I know I believe, if I am a lesbian, if I really liked my boyfriend, it led me to a break up, i think I had POCD and now TOCD. I used to paint my nails, to take a great care of my hair and now all this things seems a big lie. I am afraid all the time this could be another thing, not OCD. Be strong all of you!

You give me so much hope.🖤

hii!!! you made a video about this I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, such a positive human

I am also suffering with tocd and I am very upset please help me 😭😭

“Don’t let a figment of your wandering mind implant a sorry future” - Just because you thought about it on a whim doesn’t mean it’s real. Don’t let it affect you or your future. acknowledge, picture it, responds calmly, then let go and move on. We’ll all get through this

It kind of makes more sense to me now that she said sometimes hocd and trans ocd come hand in hand. Cause growing up (I am a female), I always liked boys. And I always knew they were gay people out there and some were my peers, one of them is my best friend. And I never felt prejudiced against them. It's just in my world it was a girl likes a guy and a guy likes a girl cause that's what it's like for me as an individual. Now that I have hocd I start feeling more like a guy and that worries me so this makes more sense.

And congratulations on the move! It was a symbolic background.

Thank you Chrissie, you are wonderful to us

I have tocd!!!! God!! What I do with the thoughts though is I've managed to get to the point where I say "okay sure", and it's less scary now. The way to break out of the cycle is to stop fearing being trans and just accept any possibility and then you'll find it much easier to live

Im literally girly as hell? Why am i going thru this :( my hocd caused me to imagine myself as a trans person and how im stuck in tocd. I also have a (boyfriend sorta) and i thought about how if i kissed him that would make him gay when its not true . Ugh this is literal hell.

It can happen in reverse too. I’m pretty sure I’m transfem, have been transitioning for years and have been happy with it, but lately I’ve been obsessively questioning whether I’m sure. I quit hormones to see how I’d feel, but that just stressed me out and made the OCD worse. It’s eaten up months at this point, but I’m finally getting treatment for it.

Thank you Chrissie! I think you just forget thai It’s very common to doubt about “do I really like my manly/femminine appereance?” and sometimes you feel that you really don’t! I fight this since 2013 and I can tell to everybody that OCD is treatble and today I feel a lot better! Kiss from Italy! 🇮🇹♥️

Hi! I’m Remi and I’m a 13 year old girl (it literally gave me anxiety saying this) ima she/her I hate these thoughts now it’s making me think I hate being called girl/being views a girl. But when I try he/him and imagine I hate even more. I love being I love my body. I love wearing bikinis and impressing boys. I don’t want to be a boy. I’m a girl. This gave me a relief writing this. I’m so hyper aware when people call me a girl. I hate it. I just want to go back. Now I’m imagining my birth certificate and how it says I’m female and my mind mad about it but I’m not. I’m so scared I’m trans and I don’t want to be a boy. I feel sick all the time being of the anxiety and when she/her it relieves me. I’m so confused. Please someone help god bless.

Omg, I'm glad I'm not alone. I'm male and I had these thoughts of being trans for the past 4 days. I feel so lost and terrified 😨. This is good content btw

I love love your hair. So beautiful !!!

Absolutely right! I heard from someone experienced like myself in the struggle that reassurance is only good at first . but can end up making you feel bad

2 months ago I had HOCD and I couldn't look girls because of the ODC, then it went away and started tocd and now I can't look at men anymore because my mind says "you look at them because you want be one not because You're attracted! " it's a nightmare. This is the most paynful OCD I've ever had

Love this so much! Thank you!!

I have never questioned my gender or identity until a few days ago until I watched a video where this girl said that it could take your whole life to figure out if you are trans, and now it’s all I can think about. I sleep so that I don’t have to deal with the thoughts, but then I dream about the same stuff. I’m terrified because I don’t know if I really am trans or if it is just ocd. Whenever I think of living life as a man, it doesn’t seem like it would be bad, and that is what makes me nervous. I’ve been fine being a girl all my life, even though I have never been as feminine as other girls. Now I don’t know if I am trans and just using the term tocd to cover up the fact that I may be. I used to be a tomboy when I was younger, but I still never questioned my gender. I’m constantly asking myself “what if living life as a man would make this feeling go away” or I even question whether I am non-binary. I feel like I have completely lost myself. Is this ocd or do you think I am actually trans?

im not officially diagosed with ocd but looking at these videos helped me a lot. i think ocd gave me EDs and BDD and anxiety and i hate it because i dont know who i am and i think i never did. and i cant explore my identity with ocd. i never even got a chance to be feminine and my brain is saying im a man. the only thing i was ever certain of was that im a lesbian and ocd told me i am not and i had a breakdown. i could deal with fighting the trans and non binary OCD thoughts but i cant deal with questioning who i am. ocd is so convincing it hurts. and it can be bad but good at the same time. the constant checking if im trans or not and freaking out is draining. im always anxious for the next day of the trans thoughts and with gcse’s im falling so behind.

Oh dang. Grats on 4k subs!

For me, when I have these thoughts it forces into my head that “I don’t feel like a girl” even though when I have a different theme of OCD I feel like I am a girl and don’t even question it. It makes me feel like I actually am trans or a boy and that I want this, even though I don’t and I am currently trying my best to tell myself “its just a though you need to pay no mind to, and you’re okay. Its all fake feelings.”

For me I was playing game called Bitlife and there is a section called activities and if you are older than 18 then one of the activities was to get surgery to change your gender and reading that triggered me and made me anxious and uncomfortable leading me to delete the game I was going through hocd before this happen and I was getting scared if I was going to change gender in real life and I realize this was felt similar before it wasthe feeling of being anxious and bother and scared what felt similar and I was keep obsessing instead of making this worse I instead try to accept the thoughts which was working a lil bit but end up arguing with my thoughts again and I don’t feel as anxious and it’s probably because I’m on meds for a month my way seeking reassurance and certainty is by searching in the internet I don’t want to be a girl I like the way I was born and there is nothing I will change about myself I have nothing against girls but I just don’t want to be one I like me for being me

Sometimes I think, being a man/being non binary wouldn’t be that bad, then I think Oh No I am!!!! Is that what this is

Oh my transgender ocd was one of my first themes! As a kid I didn’t know what transgender was so I thought that if you were a girl you grew a penis and if you were a guy it retracted , but as I grew up I realized that is definitely not the case 😅 I remember being 13 and just having a thought out of nowhere that said “I wanna be a boy” I couldn’t wear certain shirts or do certain things for awhile due to it. It was bad.

Things I recommend that can work which I will try with my therapist is -CBT - ERP(exposure therapy you can try your self just face your fear - Act ( acceptance) basically just don’t try to fight the thought let it be and try accept it instead say something like this My thoughts are ok I will be ok

i’m a girl and recently dealt with hocd. yesterday i was drying my hair and thinking abt my childhood and i was a big tomboy. when i was really young i wanted to be a boy but then i slowly grew out of it but now i’m thinking that’s proof i’m transgender. but i don’t wear makeup often but i like it when i wear it. i hate when i don’t look nice and wear feminine athletic clothes all the time and never wear masculine clothes but ocd is convincing me i’m trans. help

im dealing with this aswell im pretty sure, but im feel like im CONSTANTLY fighting against my feelings, because it really makes me feel like this is what id want yet it feels wrong aswell. i was dealing with HOCD before and it began to get less now luckily, but now im getting TOCD thoughts, just great. and also, i am a female christain, and these thoughts all of a sudden have caused my feelings to fight against me of what i want and gives me urges that i shouldn't have towards things i never worried about before ( including my faith for God ). all i want is to stop worrying about these type of things and live my life normally, and maybe be actually happy for once

I dont want to be traumatized. I WANT TO FORGET THIS. That I ever lived this experiences.

I know I’m cis but my mind makes up things to make me question that but I know it’s not true I just wanna feel back to normal

At least I discovered OCD existed soon. 1 week after this started. The first days before I knew it was OCD I wanted to die I didn't want to be trans. I was reading too many reddit forums. I was like How the hell I am trans if I dont want to be trans but my brain told me you are trans.

thanks a lot :( this helped me a lot

since a child, i loved being boyish and love to do things like boys because i thought it was cool, but never once doubted whether i was a girl or not. I always felt like a girl but then i got this fear of whether it will change in the future. The thought been stuck in my head for months. I can't do anything to stop it. one thing i know is that somewhere in my mind i know I'm still a girl and i will never ever change that. but now i can't feel anything, it's like i can't even tell the difference between being a boy or girl. i feel distant from myself like i don't even know who i am.What's happening to me😭😭😭😭 one thing i know is everything went wrong after i got this thought .

Have you ever worked with clients with more specific obsessions like Toxic/Bad Person OCD (the fear that you may turn into a toxic person or are one and don’t realize it) or Social Situation OCD (obsession over social situations of any kind or just a tendency to overanalyze and seek reassurance in regards to this idk maybe this might fall under Relationship OCD)

I have been struggling with this for months now. Almost a year actually. The part I seem to keep getting stuck on is that there is a part of me that is sad if I am not a woman. It is the most confusing thing and I honestly need to start getting more help for it but its a battle for sure.

I believe I’m trans and know I have OCD. My OCD tells me I’m a woman even though being a woman caused me dysphoria and made me feel extremely resentful of myself. I don’t identify with women but any slight feminine thing or look I experience my OCD attacks and says I’m a woman. The thought of being cis is extremely distressing because I started feeling genuinely better when I started changing my appearance. I didn’t experience OCD any time I started questioning my gender, it was a gradual realisation until I saw a trans guy in a music video and I thought... he looks good, I could be like him too! It was gradual but then I started obsessively questioning because I felt I wasn’t trans enough. It eats me alive now. I don’t want to be cis, I don’t like being my sex but I don’t want every aspect of maleness such as a huge beard or balding

i id'd as a trans guy during my teens then detransitioned bc it wasnt what i wanted. hate that im still dealing w anxiety. ive always had ocd so i Know its that, i literally tried itand realised it wasnt what i wanted already. id love to just leave it all behind me already ughh. i dont want to change my body, i love it.

I had HOCD for months but now I feel that I can control it. The problem is, after that TOCD started. The reason I scared so much, is because from a young age I always like body swap, but in a sexual way. I don’t see myself becoming a woman, I just sometimes have fantasies about being a woman so I can touch myself and all of that and not become woman for the rest of my life. I know that inside I’m a man and feeling comfortable, but my OCD is really driving me crazy. I never thought about it before the HOCD pop up a few months ago.

¡Thank you!

3 weeks ago a thought came in my head saying what if I'm gay, I stressed about for a day then it went down because I knew I wasn't and I'm attracted to females then like the next day a thought came in my head and said what if I'm a lesbian girl, and ever since I've been stressing about this everyday, I don't want to be a female at all, I've never felt like this in my life, my whole life I've played sports like football and basketball and dressed as a boy and played with boy toys, I know I'm not a female but the thoughts keep trying to convince me that I am. This is the worst I've ever felt in my lifw

My problem is that i was always was a guy. Never had any doubt about it ans always feel like a guy Then suddenly one day i looked on the ground and suddenly i was a women who is in a mens body. Therefore i had HOCD and Covid which is now with this completly gone. And even as a women i wanted go back to normal. Than i started to fill out a formular and suddenly i was back to my normal. Now i seek for an answer why i was a women at this moment. And i sometimes feel that i am a women but if i look in the mirror i see me and not another person

OCD can mutate? I am no longer afraid of being gay and I don't do as many compulsions as before but now I wonder if I will love my family? I'm afraid that I might hurt them, or afraid that I'm going blind or deaf or that I'm going to die or my family is going to die, even today I spent about three hours thinking maybe that I might be transgender, and at first I was afraid, I tried to calm down, now I am calm but I am worried about being calm because my mind tells me that I am accepting that I am gay and transgender, I was just coming out of this hell and another one is created again, something similar happened a year ago when this horrendous thing started, I am afraid I don't want to have this shit again, these last months have been the worst for me, I am afraid that I am going to die, I don't want to go back to this shit, these last months have been the worst for me, I don't want to go back to this sh*t I know the group is not for calming and I have tried to avoid looking for calm but I honestly can't deal with it, if anyone can help I would appreciate it.

Hi, This is Luca from Italy. I've been struggling with TOCD (or actual gender dysphoria, who knows? this is ocd right?!) since 6 years ago. I always struggled with my sexual orientation, or at least I was always been afraid of being homosexual. Then after one year of relationship with my girlfriend (we never had any issues in or out of bed) I said her that I had this thought about being gay. She immediately left me (I couldn't blame her, as she said that the sole idea of me being with a man repulsed her). Right after we broke up, I started to the develop the idea that instead of being gay I might be transgender woman in TOTAL denial (as you see me you would never think I might be trans). 6 years after still couldn't tell myself who I'm, hoping one day I will find out.

I have only been recently diagnosed with OCD, for the past couple of days I have been dealing with this and it’s weird like it feels like I have to brains one is telling me I’m trans and then the other does not want to be and it freaks me out I’m on pins 24/7 and it’s the first thing on my mind when i wake up my first experience with TOCD was when I was 12/13 when I was going though puberty and had my gay thought and it freaked me out I would have not sleep for days and I remember I said to myself that I would rather be a women then be gay (nothing wrong with being gay I was just 12/13 at the time) and I just forgot about it when I realised I was straight couple years later now and my ocd has been crazy and I watched a OCD video and the man in the video mentioned the word transgender and it triggered again for no reason and now I don’t know who I am what I want I don’t want to go through surgery and all of that because I don’t want to be a girl but because of these thoughts for some reason it sounds Odd when I say I’m a boy like it does not feel right and it freaks me out. like 2 weeks ago I was going to the gym to get huge I wanted to do body building and now none of that has no purpose to me now. Like I could just stand up and have a feeling that I’m a women and it would again scare me it feels weird I have never felt like this way before And I just need to help and advice

Yesss I feel I lost the person I always wanted to be. A successful actor and model. I want to have my dreams backm its been only 2 weeks. I will pray for it to go away soon.

can this theme of ocd also make you question whether what you feel is actually body dysphoria? I sometimes get discomfort about my body parts BECAUSE of the intrusive thoughts, which then leads to the intrusive thought "this is gender dysphoria" and the debate just continues in my head.

Hi! This was a really good video. Ive had hocd im sure even though i im bisexual. A little graphic here but i got so scared when i came across the term "autoandrophilia" which is though of as a fetish. I thought that because i imagine being male in those instances that im a man trapped in a girls body. Im still worried and ive had this worry for over 2 months now.

okay. i really need help i’m afraid i might be in denial but i don’t wanna be and i wanna be me again i’m 13 and randomly got these trans thoughts in my head after my sister said “i think i might be transgender” and my brain just flooded with those thoughts the next night “what if i’m transgender” “what if i wanna be transgender” this has been happening for about a week and i’m scared because i feel uncomfortable sometimes when i see other men and be like “do i wanna look like him?” and then my fear of denial is coming everytime my brain says “you’re in denial” because i know my family will accept me for who i am or wanna be but what if i can’t accept myself for being trans? i don’t wanna be transgender i have nothing against the lgbtq but i’ve never seen myself as a guy until these thoughts have been flooding inside i started thinking “what if my baby brother doesn’t accept me” then my head is like “you are in denial” and denial is fear or not being accepted but deep down i really don’t wanna be a guy and now i’m afraid. this is HELL. will it ever go away? am i in denial?

This vid is relatable 🤣🤣🤣🤣oh my goodness I cannot imagine myself like that I love being woman ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️but am wanting these thoughts get lost I have hocd and tocd both of them are killing me

i hate having those thoughts so much. over a year ago everything went back to normal and i was so happy with being a girl again but then i got a random thought and my ocd got 10 times worse. there's so much fear in my body i just want to feel comfortable with myself again and stop questioning everything i do. i know it's not true and it's just my brain but that feels so real and i'm losing all my hope :(

Can this be like a back door spike? I’ve been feminine my whole life. I like it too.

I think I had this for a year. I thought it was gender dysphoria. The whole thing was hell. I was briefly on HRT. My GF broke up with me. And now thoughts about possibly being trans seem completely absurd. Like how could I have thought that?

we’re all just going through a Trisha Paytas phase - we’ll make it through y’all 😂

I’m a man having HOCD and TOCD at the same time it’s like it’s goes to HOCD and when I don’t worry about it it goes to TOCD and I don’t know what to do and the thought that just triggered so badly was “should I be” and the “I want to” it just randomly poped out of nowhere

I'm a gay i accept it when i was 13 and have a femmine bheaviour too i enjoyed my life as a gay and happy to be gay i never had thought to be transtion nor i questioned about my sexuality or gender what if i m transgender .. I want to be women in past of my life but its only come for 1 sec on my head not reaptivevly in my mind ...im 21 now i really dipresed one day a thought popout on my mind what if im transgender and this thought repatatively comes never Stop for sec i really dipresed and my anixety more and more increase when i fall asleep then then this thought go and when i wakeup this thoughts reaptatively hit me

I am sorry for writing too much. I am scared, terrified and desperated.

Hi Chrissie

The feeling of wanting to be the opposite gender are so true , this distress me so much

Thank you so much. This really helped

For me the point is as follows: - I'm questioning my gender identity. As a man I feel too feminine - which means I don't feel masculine enough to deserve living like a normal man. The fact that I have doubts about my gender identity already confirms to me I probably have gender dysphoria, because if I don't I shouldn't have doubts in the first place. - I feel guilty towards myself wasting my life because I hold myself back into social isolation and I blame myself for being a coward. I feel guilty towards transgender people. My thoughts are going very fast forward and I imagine transgender women being very angry at me, because they blame me for being a hypocrite coward and they feel offended by me being that much anxious because I might be a transgender just like them. - I'm spending countless of hours on the internet looking for something which can take my fears away. I become frustrated, because it seems to be on the whole internet there's NOTHING which can comfort me. I only read things like "When you're transgender you have to accept it no matter if you like it or not!" I finally get it isn't about gender dysphoria. It is about self-loathing. I hope you guys can do something with the next story to gain some self-confidence: Imagine yourself like Atlas from the Greek mythology who's carrying the earth on his back: images4.imagebam.com/ed/06/61/ME64P5X_o.jpeg Of course the earth represents your problems you chronically have to deal with. You almost succumb to your problems and you want someone to get rid of those as soon as possible, because you cannot hold it much longer! I have to disappoint you, that ain't going to happen, never! You have to deal with those problems for the rest of your life. So that means you'll never going to be happy, right? Wrong! Of course you can become happy! You only have to become stronger, because the stronger you'll get the easier it becomes to deal with your problems. Just like Atlas you have to gain some muscles. And the only way you can gain muscles is by firstly lifting weights and secondly taking care of your body with the right nutrition and enough sleep. Eventually you will change from this image.shutterstock.com/image-photo/full-length-body-size-view-260nw-1752369068.jpg to this media.gettyimages.com/photos/handsome-bodybuilder-picture-id498317881?s=170667a And when you're starting to look like the handsome bodybuilder on the second picture you're grateful you weren't allowed to get rid of your problems the easy way, otherwise it never happened to you looking like that. And for the men who chronically question their masculinity - still having doubts with all those muscles you gained thanks to your effort? If you want to have doubts then you can find them. However maybe you don't want to look for them anymore, because you feel so much better and more proud of yourself ... it's time to start enjoying your life.

OMG Chrissie, I love your hair today more. You look so BEAUTIFUL. I have a crush on you💓💋💋💋

For me it’s when I was going through depression at the start off this year and I looked in the mirror saw my long hair witch has never bothered me before but when I saw it my brain went to look like a girl and the torture began some days are really bad like I have to fight to convince my self who I am I’ve always been comfortable and confident in the fact that I’m a guy but now the little voice is eating away at me and it hurts I just want my old life back and the horrible throughs off be being a woman to go away

You are beautiful 😊

This was my first theme I’ve had before I found out I had ocd . And I got rid of it some how and for some reason it crept up on me again . And I had a relapse of this theme . It hit me 10 times harder

I can't get therapy right now its impossible for me right now. I am afraid I won't resist.

Can ocd give you that natural feeling when you imagine yourself as a boy ??

i dont know what to do im feeling so much fear i dont feel right. ive been trying to be more feminine just to reassure myself

The second started having these thoughts, I’ve been automatically looking at my own body, is this normal?

Does anyone else get kinda uncomfortable when someone calls you your birth gender I hate it and the reason I think that happens to me is because it’s on my mind

Yeah I feel disconnected to who I am. Like 2 weeks ago I was different. Not lime becoming trans but now I cant even workout or watch movies.

I think I have both HOCD and TOCD, but the TOCD causes me more anxiety so I focus on it more.

Hiii ....... I was suffering from tocd ....... I got a new way to tackle it ..... It's my experience ...... I am a guy ,while suffering from tocd my mind says I'm doing feminine things,i got too worried of it ,then i started saying to myself that I'm a transgender man i started laughing and that thought of turning trans woman gone ... It's just my idea ,bcoz ocd is always irrational eventhough u know changing to someother gender is absurd ,u keep on worrying about it,so i thought of sought out irrational thought with another irrational thought It worked for me so i shared here..... I don't know whether it work for everyone but do try nothing to lose. If this method seems harmful r anything pls anyone can say anytime .... So that i can delete this msg ...... Hope u all get well soon ......🥳🥳😁

Chrissie please can you just tell what to do exactly to recover completely I am trying everything but I can't achieve complete recovery, along with that i have got dp/dr which makes my life completely pointless. The worst thing is that I have to focus on both yet recover from none of them since they feed off from each other.

okay so first i had harm ocd i had all the thoughts and stuff and like then i felt as if i had hocd and now i’m worrying what if i had tocd.

I don't want to learn to handle it I want it to go away. It wasn't here last month.

I lost myself forever.... that's how i feel. If someone wants to talk about it please, contact me

I want to be normal 😭😭😭

I’ve watched hentai where men are turned into women. I’ve watched it before I had HOCD. But I’ve always identified as a man. I don’t care much for what I wear. I don’t like the idea of doing things that are too feminine. I don’t want to be a woman. I have nothing against transgenders, but I just don’t want to be a woman. Someone please help. I’m scared.

I thought I had Hocd turns out I didn’t and when I started questioning if I was trans I didn’t even put up a fight

This shit is eating me alive especially because I am comfortably genderfluid, but I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I am cis and “faking it” or obsessively trying to “identify” the gender I feel most at the moment. This shit is stupid and miserable. I know who I am but the ocd is absolutely fucking me up lol

I contemplate why women could choose to be a man and men could be a women. What bothers me is the thought to figure it out right now